quick question

COULD I BE ANY MORE TIRED.

Since Sunday when i woke up i've gotten 7 hours of sleep.... so in the last 72 hours i've gotten 7 hours of rest....

I'm a jerk on less than 9 a night.... I feel like a zombie

and a now pic....

same one from about a week ago just a bump up so you can see how much bigger i got this time!

for those who don't believe...

I've been telling you all i was tiny when i delivered kayd.... this was four days before i had him....

A blast from my past

Look at my bald little baby! I miss this so much!!! He spent hours upon hours in this thing every day. I think there was a point in time he wasn't happy if he wasn't in his "bouncy seat"

I pray his brother enjoys it as much as he did

My lovely baby bump

Havin some contractions tonight. wishin they'd get more regular so i can have a baby! Kayd had to yell to the baby to come by morning! I kinda hope he does too.... but I'm guessin not! Just can't get that lucky!

Having a major panic attack

We're under a month to go and I'm totally freaking out! I have so much to fix and so much to do and so much i know i can't do.

I hate that I'm two weeks from having my child knowing there's no way in the world for me to do it and to take care of him. I hate the idea that because my road will start out rocky becuase of health issues that i might have to give my child up.

I hate that everyone says if he doesn't pay his support he'll go to jail. But it still doesn't feed and diaper my child! I don't know what to do but being two weeks from delivery and wondering if you should give half of your heart up is totally heart wrenching.

Crunch time

I realize now how close i am to having my second son. Can he stay inside forever? I'm not ready! I am very very very ready to not have this constant back pain but i fear having him won't really fix the issue!

He's still unnamed, He just has to get here and let me hold him and then I'll know! Everyone's been asking, but i just don't know that i can choose a name without holding him!

I wonder everyday what he's going to look like, What his cry will be, What will soothe him when he's sad, How big he'll be. (he has huge feet!!!!) I wonder if we'll be able to make it through together and survive the life thats been handed to us!

I pray that i can do enough to cover up for the mistakes that have been made. I know i'm capable of taking care of him but I just hope and pray that I have some help!!!!

Within the next two weeks all of our unknowns should be answered!!!